Naked Feet & Eyes = Not-So-Blind Trust

I’m at the beginning of a very exciting new adventure – improving my vision and getting rid of my glasses. And I’m happy to share, in case you might like to try it too.

This morning, I did a 45 minute walk in the woods – without my glasses. I had them with me in my pocket just in case, but did the complete walk without them. Out my front door and back home again.

I also gave in to the temptation and did a very short stint in bare feet.

The sensations were quite interesting…

My feet have felt this minus 4 degree celsius cold in the past and they recognized and welcomed the momentary tingling and sharpness as the blood circulated and turned my toes a lovely pink. I really do enjoy the feeling. The most difficult part of it was getting my cold and slightly moist soles to slide back into my felt-lined boots. That was a struggle for me.

For my eyes, it was totally lovely! The fresh cold air on my eyeballs was exhilarating. And being able to pull my wool hat down to my brows with no interference from the rim of my glasses is something I almost never feel. I loved being able to do that.

The cold air always makes my eyes water and the tears seem to act like a lens, allowing another level of detail to come through. It was interesting to notice the ability to focus come and go as I looked up and down and around, as well as far away to the tree tops and closer to my gloved hands.

My brain, however, reached a different level. It had taken a lot of determined courage for me to actually try this. You see, I am the person who needs to put on her glasses to go down the stairs – to the bathroom – in the dark – at night. I don’t really physically need clarity or details to perform that function. But just in case…. My specs have become a total mental crutch.

I have relied on this crutch for close to 70 years! Is it just a habit? Can I really get rid of this dependence? I am determined to find out.

Before going out the door I had felt a tad unsure if I should take the chance…. What if I run into someone and don’t recognize her? What if I trip? What if …? Although it is a somewhat different concern, it actually made me think of FOMO – the Fear Of Missing Out. (Apparently that explains why some people take their phones to the bathroom.)

As I walked, I came to think of this choice of naked feet and eyes as a sort of metaphor for my life today. I don’t always see the path of my future 100% clearly, so I have to adopt a kind of trust – in myself and in the Universe. With anticipation and a degree of excitement, I have to just keep putting one foot in front of the other. And I don’t have to rely on protective armour to move ahead. And I don’t have to take myself so seriously. What’s the worst that can happen? And if it does come to pass, I can deal with it.

Now back to improving my eyesight. What I’ve learned in this course I’m following is that a huge cause of compromised vision is that the muscles controlling the shape of the eyeball are not relaxed, so they cannot perform their function properly. Two suggested techniques are palming and sunning. So I did these in the woods while leaning against Drumbo, one of my favourite trees. (Another very simple technique is blinking – apparently we should blink about every 2 to 3 seconds.) Because of my teariness from the cold, I definitely did a lot of blinking.

Back to the metaphor: Our path in life is not always clear or smooth or straight. There could easily be unknown and unseen dangers ahead, but we don’t stop just because they might be there. We carry on with faith in the future and our ability to see obstacles when we need to, and deal with them then.

Here I am, about four hours after coming in from my walk and I haven’t put my glasses back on. Hmmm. 😉 I seem to be getting used to this – it’s kind of a tolerance for ambiguity and lack of sharpness. But I am certainly able to function just fine. AND now I am embracing the hopeful prospects of getting rid of my glasses.

Today I will watch the video for day two. I am so looking forward to it! And I can’t wait to tell you all about the next development in this thrilling experience.

Imitation vs The Real Deal

Is imitation the sincerest form of flattery? Maybe, maybe not. But when the muse calls out to us, and we are inspired, it can be a lot of fun to respond.

The present was inspired by Kristina Drake’s post, The Apple Peeler.

Cat’s Cradle by Robyn Sarah

When women together sit sipping
cold tea and tugging at the
threads of memory, thoughtfully
pulling at this
or that bit or loop, or slipping
this loop over that finger till
warp and weft of past lives begin
crazily to unwind, when women sit
smoking and talking, the talk
making smoke in the air, when they shake
shreds of tobacco out of a crumpled pack
and keep drinking the same weak tea
from the same broken pot, something clicks
in the springs of the clock
and it’s yesterday again,
and the sprung yarn rolls down loose
from the spool of the moon.

When women together sit talking
an afternoon, when they talk
the sun down, talk stars, talk
dawn–they talk up a dust
of sleeping dogs and bones
and they talk a drum for the dust
to dance to, till the dance
drums up a storm; when women
sit drumming fingers on tops
of tables, when the tables turn
into tops that spin and hum
and the bobbin of the moon
keeps spinning its fine yarn down
to catch fingers, when fingers catch
talk in a cat’s cradle, and turn
talk into a net to catch the curve
of the storm–then it’s talk
against talk, till the tail
of the storm trails into dust
and they talk the dust back down.

Things that matter and don’t matter
are caught together, things done and undone,
and the kettle boils dry and over
while they lean closer to peer down
into the murky water where last night’s dream
flicks its tail and is gone
(and the reel of the moon keeps cranking
its long line down)–when women together
sit sipping cold tea and sawing on the strings
of memory, it is an old tune.
The rice sticks to the bottom of the pan,
and things get left out in the rain.

Below is an alteration/imitation inspired by a scene at the poet’s home in Hungary.

A Carpentry of Old Men by Kristina Drake

When old men together sit planning
a new project, when they plan
the time out, plan views, plan
night – they plan up a dust
of lumber yards and beams
and they plan a fiddle for the wood
to dance to, till the dance
fiddles up a spark; when old men
sit stirring sugar in cups
with spoons, when the spoons turn
into tools that spin and whine
and the brace of the sky
keeps working its drill bit deep
to bore lumber, when lumber seats
plans in a bearing wall, and turns
plans into a frame to build the strength
of the spark – then it’s plans
against plans, till the flash
of the spark sears into wood
and they plan the wood back up.    

Things that matter and don’t matter
are caught together, things done and undone,
and the trees grow tall and strong
while they lean closer to peer down
into the fallen ashes where the day’s work
flicks a match and is gone
(and the truss of the sky keeps bracing
its timber frames up) – when old men together
sit drinking hot coffee and tapping on the boards
of tomorrow, it is a new song.
The sun glints off the metal flashing
and the gutters gather the rain.

Finally here is a version inspired by the poet’s beloved collection of gemstones and crystals.

Apache Tears and Desert Rose by Audrey Drake

When a woman alone sits sipping
hot tea and toying with the
mystery of life, thoughtfully
admiring this
Bloodstone or Emerald, or holding
this Garnet between fingers till
courage and joy of a new life begins
happily to unfold, when a woman sits
thinking and dreaming, the dreams
making hope in the room, when she takes
the Fluorite from the corner square
and keeps drinking the same hot tea
from the same tiny pot, something moves
in the depths of her soul
and it’s only today,
and the Moonstone rolls down loose
from one hand to the other.

When a woman alone sits dreaming
an afternoon, when she dreams
the sun down, dreams Turquoise, dreams
Agate- she dreams up a future
of waking vigor and joy
and she dreams a love for the future
to dance to, till the dance
evokes an embrace; when a woman
sits caressing the Mangano
at the table, when the tables turn
into clouds that form and roll
and the frequencies in the air
keep growing in strength down
to catch fingers, when fingers catch
dreams on a cloud, and turn
dreams into a net to catch the essence
of the clouds -then it’s dream
against dream, till the wisp
of the embrace trails into the future
and she dreams the future back down.

Things that matter and don’t matter
are caught together, things done and undone,
and the Kyanite moves up and over
while she leans closer to peer down
into the lovely Howlite where last night’s dream
flicks its tail and is gone
(and the Tiger’s Eye keeps seducing
the Pink Opal) -when a woman alone
sits sipping hot tea and loving the feel
of her Rose Quartz, it is an old tune.
The Amethyst vibrating in her hand reminds her of rain.

In the Red!

Chez moi, at Audities’ House of Cards, when I’m not taking photos, or designing greeting cards, I tend to dabble in experiments with fermented foods.

To date, I’ve mastered kombucha quite well, and drink it regularly. I’ve also successfully fermented beets, made beet kvass, and most recently, produced some delicious white cabbage sauerkraut. So now, I am on to a new venture: red cabbage sauerkraut.

For your enjoyment, I’ve documented the process from two days ago.

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Cabbage salt mixture

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Gray sea salt with some pink Himalayan

I added about four healthy teaspoons of coarse gray sea salt to about two and a half pounds of coarsely shredded red cabbage, and blended it together with my hands. The salt made the cabbage glisten with moisture almost immediately.

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Before using the mallet

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One Laundry-Day in the Hood

I hang laundry while standing on the bench so I can reach the line. I feel a bit rebellious since someone once told me I should be careful.

I admit that I do have a preference for using the same colour pegs for each item — I even back-track and change the pegged colour if I’ve messed up. I also choose the peg colours to suit the colour of the item I’m hanging. Where does that come from? And why?

It’s very comforting to hang according to some order/some personal rules, whatever they may be.

I choose to put the heavier items first because they take longer to dry. I hang pants from the cuff, not from the waist which is often too thick for the pegs. I like to hang shirts and t-shirts across the middle of the torso so they leave less evidence of being captured by the pegs. I like to avoid ironing.

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Marie Antoinette’s Painter — Élisabeth VigĂŠe Le Brun

Although I am not a painter, I feel inspired by the life of this woman.

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Born in 1755, I would guess this prolific artist must have been quite happy and fulfilled — she painted 660 portraits and 200 landscapes in her lifetime, and died just before her 87th birthday. Perhaps it was the exposure to intrigue and nobility. Alas, I don’t have much of that in my life.

Alas, too, I missed seeing this exhibit in New York last year. I’m sure I would’ve enjoyed it.

Do You Believe in Magic?

I’m sure most of us did at one point in our lives. And yes, many of us still do – if only in our dreams.

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However, if we truly observe where we find joy, we can see that indeed, there is magic all around us: in the love that flows between a mother and her new-born; in the discovery of tiny flowers that have bloomed overnight – in the darkness of the forest; in the millions of stars in a midnight-blue sky; and in surprisingly glorious sunrises and sunsets.

Whatever your definition allows on this fabulously cold spring day, may it truly enthral you and enchant you to bits!

And may it add a touch of magic to your wide-awake dreams.

Thank you, Robert Frost

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The woods are lovely, [white and bright,]

But I have [Wordpress posts to write,

And work to do before tonight,

And work to do before tonight.]

It’s rare that I enter these woods without the words of Robert Frost’s famous poem dancing through my mind. But since I was there on a sunny afternoon, his words didn’t quite ring true. So, I had to modify them. And yes, now they respect the moment. 🙂

Perhaps you’d like to listen to Robert Frost reading his original creation, Stopping By Woods on a Snowy Evening.